After I dealt with the children and we came to a resolution, I realized something about the situation. I saw my own actions in the root of this fight, which is being quick to judge. My sweet children were replicating what they see in me. Ouch! I reflected back on times in which my first response is often a judgment statement instead of a question to clarify behavior.
“Just hear us out. You’re only 21. You have your whole life ahead of you. You have to be sure about this.”
As I listened to them talk me through the reality of my situation and tell me that this could all be over if I wanted it to be, I sobbed and pleaded with God for answers. For a split second I did just want it to all go away. As quickly as the thought entered my mind I became nauseous with indignation.
One of the best things I did as a young mom was to begin taking a Sabbath rest. Did I have time for it? No. Was it a necessity? I learned the answer to that question was YES! When my third child was about 12 months, I was overwhelmed. This wasn’t the first time I was overwhelmed as a mom, but this time I was about ready to give up. My temper was getting short, my patience low and my energy level was below zero! Have you ever been there? Don't get me wrong, I loved being a stay at home mom, but I was EXHAUSTED. What could I do? I couldn’t see an end in sight where I could refuel.
I take my eyes off of my own race as a mother. I begin to look at how other moms parent their children, or how successful their life appears juggling and multi-tasking the demands of a busy family. It is particularly hard when I see someone a few steps ahead of me in a season of life; I begin to unfairly compare my life to hers.
Social media and the world of comparison we live in with "selfies" and documenting the highlights of each day taunts us constantly. It is as if the runners around us flaunt the fact they are running the race better and faster. We become distracted and consumed and our eyes begin to wander.
Trust His perfect plans for you, even when He speaks the word immediately to you.
There were days when I wanted to ask the disciples if they ever looked back, if they missed just being a fisherman or if they missed their friends and families?
Then I hear Jesus’ words from Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
Social Media pretty much feels like middle school all over again. Why do we do this to ourselves? The drama of who has more likes, who can post the best vacation pic, who has the most creativity, who has the coolest VIP encounter consumes every post. I mean, seriously, it feels like social media is the perpetual state of living out middle school drama no matter how old we are!